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This morning was quite emotional, my thoughts wandered to a time 5 years ago. I remember writing at 7:44: "My sons - Jacob Tom, Quinnton Tom & Ulandio Stryker Ramsey: Today is a new - a new beginning Wherever you are - what ever you are doing - do it with pride and dignity. Take today as a blessing - a new start.. Don't take for granted all the blessings that come your way - no matter how minute .. Or how trivial it may seem. Don't take advantage of people but do take advantage of opportunities. Above all -...
Quinnton decided on that October day that he wanted to die, and nothing was going to stop him. He was showing signs and speaking of his pending suicide, this frightened but a few people. My son knew death was forever and a lot of peoples’ lives would be devastated including mine. I remember him saying “You can do it – you will live though it – because you are My Mother” "That is not what I want to do”.. his response - ”Mom it is what-what it is..” His heart was shattered when we spoke, his world was turned upside...
So many moments have surfaced to the forefront of my mind, being inundated with the negativity of the outside world, why are others actions impacting me? Thinking about the answer to that, my truth is that, each life event impacts me because I am somehow emotionally attached to each event. Recalling the emotion I felt, and how I am attached to the person has reminded me that I once shared a sacred moment, a life altering experience, a memory that taught me valuable lessons with the person. I am not strong, I am an emotionally charged convoy of experience. I...
Fentanyl laced drugs took my son Quinnton's spirit in February of 2015. He thought it was going okay - because his friend gave it to him. He didn't remember a lot that day - what he did remember was two fold - that he almost died .. and he saw & felt something he never felt before ..(I shall elaborate at a later date) Quinnton was found unresponsive and face down on the sidewalk on the DES of Vancouver when the paramedics found him. Quinnton received Naloxone and he had said when people were finally able to talk to him...
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