I light a candle in memory of my child Quinnton Tom who felt the pain so deep that he couldn’t stay. I wept so deep, and felt an intense pain that I couldn’t breathe. Grief of this magnitude is my lifelong companion, I sleep with it, I have meals with it, I have an intimate relationship with it, I walk with it, and I embrace it. Grief from suicide, will forever be my best friend, I will fight it, I will feed it and I will confide in it. The declaration to do something to break down barriers. To STOP...
Standing as a shadow, and looking at the memorial stone that represents my child. I feel as though the strength to carry on - is not in the Headstone, but the memories it represents. As gentle as the wind blew as I stood still and talked to you, I know that there is more to what this represents. To have a quiet moment and remember what your voice sounds like, to know you love and protected others with the might of a grizzly bear. I think of the tomorrows to come - No other should feel this ghost line existence,...
When we place stigmas before the cause then we will be no further ahead than we were yesterday. The cause of death was the act of suicide - It was my child’s depression that brought him to complete his act. He wasn’t crazy in the head, he was not a loony, he wasn’t bonkers, he didn’t as some put it “Off himself”, or “Commit sideways” The word is Suicide: It’s okay to say it - You won’t catch it The word is Suicide: It is not contagious, it is an action that he used to end his pain. We may...
When we left for a journey, I wasn’t sure what the trip was going to entail. I had a feeling, deep beyond the unknown that the emotions were going to surface. I wasn’t sure what I was going to feel, but this time I was going to challenge myself, far beyond anything I was ever challenged with before. Listening to stories, feeling the experiences and watching as transformation take place. I’ve seen the strong break down and cry, their tears are not from being weak, their tears are to show that they are strong enough! Crying isn’t being weak, crying...
The grieving process has been quite the journey. I know that every event in my life has brought me to this exact place of being. Every missed opportunity, and accomplished, every lesson learned and disqualified, every moment hit and missed has brought me to this space I’m in. Every morning I ask for guidance and protection for all our community members that while they are preparing for the journey each and every one be blessed with positive energy and an abundance of Guiding Spirits to protect each and everyone who are impacted by all the unnatural deaths. I recall, putting...
- CC Walk 2019