The grieving process has been quite the journey. I know that every event in my life has brought me to this exact place of being. Every missed opportunity, and accomplished, every lesson learned and disqualified, every moment hit and missed has brought me to this space I’m in. Every morning I ask for guidance and protection for all our community members that while they are preparing for the journey each and every one be blessed with positive energy and an abundance of Guiding Spirits to protect each and everyone who are impacted by all the unnatural deaths. I recall, putting...
As the day starts to unfold, please check in on one another. Even sitting in the quiet place and just present will allow others to step in and others to step up. The unnatural deaths that have occurred has triggered a lot of emotions, the constant state or survival has given birth to fight or flight. When this is recognized as natural emotions we can work together to continue the healing. The gossip, backstabbing, rivalry, and untold truths are they worth it all? The equalization of gender roles can be utilized in a healthy atmosphere. The division has brought friends...
I wonder some day, we'll actually most days, do you know how much I love you? When I think of those words it is more than an action, or a a reaction it is away of life. I know that the way I received love, it was unconditionally. I was beyond blessed and felt my cup runneth over, when a child embraced me and said ”I love you,” knowing that pure love, pure joy and acceptance is something we can learn from a child. So I ”stay strong” As I sat there, and watched as tears began to fall, that...
271 weeks - 1893 days... since you gave yourself permission to die. I think of our final conversation, the day you died, I remember "through it all know I love you Momma!" I know you love me and I know you loved yourself. You knew you are loved by many, but you didn't know how to love yourself. I'm just sorry my dearest son, that you felt unloved to the point of acting on and completing your suicide. One thing I know for sure the deepest, most earth shattering, hurt beyond words - is the hurt I feel knowing you...
Sitting on the edge of tomorrow, wondering, what is my life’s purpose for? Do I find comfort in knowing that when tomorrow comes I am filled with... Do this - do that - do, go, run, drive, eat, go, go, go... to be a part of society and fulfilling all the expectancy with out blinking an eye, then at the edge of tomorrow, wondering what it is all for? My heart has been heavy for family and friends, burying their loved ones, either from natural causes, or by accidents, or by Suicide. The heart wrenching grief that death brings is...
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