Remembering | February 20, 2020🌹
I Remember The sound of her crying .. When they told her our Babba died..
I remember so many things - (the one thing I want to remember - but I can't .. I've tried so hard .. It's not coming back .. Not yet..)
I wish I could ask her how to do this .. "Grief" - it's too much for me to handle .. I remember when our brother Stanley died and she said - "our children are suppose to bury us .. Not us burying our children "
I now know .. What she meant ..
I wonder how our parents - Aunts and Uncles did it - how did they survive .. I can barely breathe through the tears some days .. But they did ..
"When strength is the only thing left .. You dig deep down and you will find some more .. Each day as you need it.. You will find it.."
I get it - I don't want to ...But I do .. I miss you - Mamma .. I really do .. Hold onto my Son .. And tell him as you told me .. "I love you"
(Thank You Valerie O'Connal for the photo)