Looking Back At Me... | May 21, 2020 👓
"Fate whispered to the Warrior, you can not withstand the storm – and the Warrior whispered I AM THE STORM!" Understanding and living through this one storm, I am at a better understanding of what personal "storms" are. It is not finding my way around it, nor am I waiting for it to pass. I am standing, as strong as I can be, waiting to see what this storm will teach me.
As I navigate, my new normal one that is a daily reminder that what I AM is not who others say I am, but a bit in a parcel of my life events. THE lessons learned from the experiences have brought me through a STORM I could never imagine. Realizing where I came FROM, and knowing where I AM, and acknowledging where I am GOING is a compelling journey.
Validating I don't live in the past; I reflect where I WAS. What life's lessons have brought me, is to an understanding that no matter how hard I try, there is a force more powerful than I. I sit and look at WHERE I AM NOW, is because of my experiences and learned behavior. The lessons are both positive and negative. I have been able to learn from both. I do not where this road will lead me, or WHERE I AM GOING; all I know is a part of me will always live in yesterday, where I had all three living sons gathered around me.
We weren't outwardly a perfect family, but we were perfect for each other. The glasshouse is not where I live. I am broke from all of my complete and imperfect moments—the schooling I received are from all the moments that impacted me.
Knowing that for today, I am incomplete and possibly where I will always be, this is who I am – the greatest journey of my life, looking to yesterday for all the fulfilling moments that brought me the strength I yearn to see. Looking back at yesterday, and wondering what I would see, is a life full of experiences – looking back at me.